How big is your GOD?

Ok so I am back, and I will make a better effort to keep up with my blog.

Over the past few days, I have watched and wondered what exactly GOD is up to with Kevin and I. He is doing some pretty crazy things with us. But I like crazy....but in everything I have just smiled and understood that some things take time to process. I am finished processing and have come to the conclusion that HE is asking me "How big do you think I AM?"

I have never ever spent time wondering if I trust HIM or not, I am childlike in that way-I just trust HIM. HE has never given me a reason to NOT trust HIM.

I have never ever question how much HE loves me. I am easy to love, for most people (certain parental excluded). I love how HE loves me. I am HIS child, HE handcrafted me. He takes joy in my craziness and my weird look at life. HE has shown me the humor in HIS creation and I enjoy seeing things through HIS eyes.

I have learned to be obedient when HE tells me to do things for HIM. I have learned to do it quickly, I can sleep when I do. If I delay obedience, HE has a way of making my sleep unsettled and my heart out of sorts until I just go ahead and do whatever HE has called me to do. Delayed obedience is still yet disobedience. He will send people after me to remind me what HE called me to do....that is never fun. GOD's posse has no mercy on my feelings or my unwillingness to do HIS work quickly.

Now HE has asked me to examine how BIG do I think HE is? WHAT????? IS HE BIG ENOUGH??? My immediate answer is YES OF COURSE. But do I really believe it? I have walked with him for 22 years and NOW HE wants me to consider this? Really?

Yes, HE is big enough to do miracles I could never ever imagine. I am asking for a big miracle and I am determined that HE is just that BIG....In my mind, when He tells me to come before HIS throne of grace boldly, I know that I can only see the little bit of the tip of HIS toe as HE sits on that throne, the rest of HIM is way to big for my little mind to comprehend. So , I am content to visit and talk to the tip of HIS toe. Now, that is not sarcastic or meant to be funny, it just is all of HIM that my frail human eyes can take in.

I dont think HE wants to me examine how big HIS physical body is, HE wants me to consider how BIG his WILL IS. I believe it is HUGE for me. So, for the next 30 days I am going to pray that HE will reveal just HOW BIG HE IS.

How big is HE to you????