John 13:34 says " Love one another. As I have loved you, you must love one another." I thought I knew what that meant.
Before I was a Christian, I loved. In a me-centered way. I thought I knew what loving was. I had great examples, my grandparents, Maw Maw, my parents, my friends....all great at loving. But now I know what I learned pales in comparison to how I love now.
Since I have found what true loving is, my heart has grown exponentially. Knowing how GOD has lavished His love on me, makes me know that I have more love to give. Now, loving is easy. It is not selfish anymore. When I think I don't have any more room in my heart, it just expands even more.
Passionate, crazy, pure, true love has no boundaries - it just is what it is. Passionate! Crazy! Pure! True! FUN! I hear the laughter of GOD when I joyfully love HIS children. I feel HIS smile on me and that is where I want to live.
Wanna come play with me? Just open your heart and come on in.....
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Saturday, October 2, 2010
ALSucks
Yes, that is Kevin's new motto: ALSucks!
Tuesday, September 28 is a new added day in our list of September events. It is the day our lives are irreparably changed. Kevin's diagnosis day. FINALLY!
I won't tell you that it's ok, cuz it isn't. It just is.
Now, I get to live out what I believe, in technicolor, with so many eyes watching me. I keep remembering the words said to me when my dad died. " Your reaction will either keep your family together, or tear them apart." When I drove up to the door at Mercy Hospital, my entire family was waiting for me. Seeing their faces, I knew that if I fell apart, so would they. They were waiting to see how I would deal with this incredible sorrow, so they could figure out how to mourn. I chose then, and choose now to face forward and hold the hand of my Father and let him lead me.
Heidi Reiszner led our Spa Night this season on JOB. This was a lesson I knew all too well. On my vacation to Tennessee, GOD met me on the water each morning and talked to me about Job and his suffering. Heidi said that Job was living his life, doing good, honoring GOD and praying and making sacrifices for his children. (Sound familiar?) The devil was roaming about causing havoc. (Sound familiar?) When the devil came before GOD, GOD ratted out Job. "Have you considered my servant Job?" WHAT????
"Have you considered my servant, Kevin?" What an honor to serve GOD this way. Not our plan, but HIS plan.
I, however, will NOT be Job's wife. She had such helpful advice: "Curse GOD and die" - Are you kidding me? I choose to be Kevin's wife. Praying and laughing with him. Loving him with all that I am, as usual. Teasing him, threatening him as we have done for these 28+ years.
Thankfully, we do not have JOB's friends. Those 3 were quite unbelievable. Our friends have shown us so much love and support, I am amazed. Our families are wonderful and so encouraging. Ready to do whatever we need at any time. I have realized quickly how blessed I am.
So we begin this walk, one labored step at a time. I will continue to write about our adventure. Knowing only this one thing, in everything we will let GOD alone get the glory. HE alone will get the praise. I will trust HIM to lead us in everything, every decision and every minute of the rest our our time together.
Tuesday, September 28 is a new added day in our list of September events. It is the day our lives are irreparably changed. Kevin's diagnosis day. FINALLY!
I won't tell you that it's ok, cuz it isn't. It just is.
Now, I get to live out what I believe, in technicolor, with so many eyes watching me. I keep remembering the words said to me when my dad died. " Your reaction will either keep your family together, or tear them apart." When I drove up to the door at Mercy Hospital, my entire family was waiting for me. Seeing their faces, I knew that if I fell apart, so would they. They were waiting to see how I would deal with this incredible sorrow, so they could figure out how to mourn. I chose then, and choose now to face forward and hold the hand of my Father and let him lead me.
Heidi Reiszner led our Spa Night this season on JOB. This was a lesson I knew all too well. On my vacation to Tennessee, GOD met me on the water each morning and talked to me about Job and his suffering. Heidi said that Job was living his life, doing good, honoring GOD and praying and making sacrifices for his children. (Sound familiar?) The devil was roaming about causing havoc. (Sound familiar?) When the devil came before GOD, GOD ratted out Job. "Have you considered my servant Job?" WHAT????
"Have you considered my servant, Kevin?" What an honor to serve GOD this way. Not our plan, but HIS plan.
I, however, will NOT be Job's wife. She had such helpful advice: "Curse GOD and die" - Are you kidding me? I choose to be Kevin's wife. Praying and laughing with him. Loving him with all that I am, as usual. Teasing him, threatening him as we have done for these 28+ years.
Thankfully, we do not have JOB's friends. Those 3 were quite unbelievable. Our friends have shown us so much love and support, I am amazed. Our families are wonderful and so encouraging. Ready to do whatever we need at any time. I have realized quickly how blessed I am.
So we begin this walk, one labored step at a time. I will continue to write about our adventure. Knowing only this one thing, in everything we will let GOD alone get the glory. HE alone will get the praise. I will trust HIM to lead us in everything, every decision and every minute of the rest our our time together.
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